Yknow I always dislike being treated like a kid. I want more in life than just freedom but I got no confidence in myself. Blame it on my over dependency, I hate to strive and I rely so much on my expectant. I'ld start to get whiny like how a kid does over every tiny bits and have never realise myself as an irritant. I rely so much on others throughout my life. I remember her telling me, 'never depend on others but yourself, got to be stronger'. Yes now I know why.

If only the people out there would be so much more genuine. Be it my dirty little secret within me or the prettiest top in my closet, I would share anything with anyone selflessly. But its so hard for me to lie to myself cause humans are never truthful. It makes me feel that the world out there is so much complicated. I'll be almost lost if im to stand alone. I hate hate hate to be so realistic but I have to.

Nah it's okay. Guess its time for me to take those steps infront of me myself if I want to learn how to be braver. Learn to see how beautiful it is out there and take away all the perception of the ugliness of the world.